being young but growing up

I am in a transitional age in my life... between the young me and the grown up I am supposed to be. I graduated from college almost 3 years ago and I since then I married, got a full time job, and bought a house (okay, its a condo). Sometimes I feel like someone has pressed the giant fast forward button on my life. But I do love being married, having a steady job and turning this condo into a home. I a domesticated wife that loves to go out on the weekends. I am both a child and an adult. Although I'm not perfect, I do believe that I have and am continuing to try to have a balance of both. There are times when it's okay to be a kid and times when its needed to be an adult. In most aspects of life there can be both youthfulness and being grown up. At work it's important to be professional, but it's also important to stay youthful by asking questions and learning as much as you can about the career that you're in. At home I can take a more relaxed and youthful approach, playing video games and watching TV, but I have to be grown up as well, making sure there is food on the table, the dishes are washed and the laundry is done. Going out on the weekends, I can have fun with my husband and our friends, and have a couple drinks, but as an adult, I have to be responsible and know when I should and should not drive home. Even hobbies have both aspects. I was in a hula class for 6 months last year and although it was fun and I enjoyed myself, I lacked the adult responsibility of commitment and unfortunately I no longer take the class.

In everyone's life there needs to be a balance of both. There are people in my age range who spend their checks the second they get them, not thinking about the future and the need to save. Some people party every weekend and some weeknights and do not understand their own limits. Others, however, go too fast in life, wanting to always grow up and never enjoy the simplicities of the present. I lean more towards the latter. I can't wait for the day that I have kids in a huge house, and I can stay home and cook all day and clean house. But I also don't think I can give up my weekend life and the joys of only being responsible for myself and my husband.

So right now I must have a balance of both, both enjoying the present but being aware of the future.